Recall

GTX590!!!

2011-06-22T06:35:00.010+08:00

I went to digitalmall 14 yesterday and spot this graphic card on the shelf .

free M8000Xtreme gaming mouse!

bubbye quadro 600...

first time pasang sendiri :P

The rateing went from 6.6 to 7.9

Now i can do most of my 3d work in realtime! :D

gtx590

Paralyze

2010-11-27T18:27:00.003+08:00

You are wasting my time.

BLUE

2010-10-26T15:42:00.003+08:00

: l

Moist

2010-10-21T21:48:00.003+08:00

added specular and bump map

180 preview:

stay tune, ears part after this....

Flesh

2010-10-08T02:04:00.004+08:00

Almost there! :D

180 preview:

Enjoy :D

Baking

2010-10-05T00:15:00.008+08:00

Latest progress on my head study or self portrait... : l

The hair sucks, its temporary. I will model it myself with its own uv map and soft-body physic. Can't be bother with the ears either.. :P

180° preview:

vain gila....hahaha

Finally

2010-09-21T12:25:00.009+08:00

Upgraded!!! :D

Intel Core i7 930 processor,
Gigabyte X58A - UD3R motherboard,
Kingston DDR3 1333 2GB x4 ram,
XFX GeForce 9800GTX+ 512MB DDR3 graphic card(old),
1TB hard disk,
700w silent pro power supply.

Spended RM2.8k for them.

My first animation render with the machine:

Only took an hour for this.

I'm happy :)

Goodbye

2010-08-23T03:36:00.002+08:00

Pegi Belaa la bodoh!!

ISOBELLA!

2010-07-31T16:12:00.002+08:00

I cried times just thinking of you
Your hollow face makes strangers of your eyes
Behind that empty gaze I tried to find you
Lost within yourself for all this time

Fender Stratocaster

2010-06-24T15:16:00.002+08:00

I wish i had one for myself :D

Progress

2010-06-18T21:40:00.003+08:00

i don't know where i'm heading... heh...

Exorcist

2010-06-14T12:17:00.018+08:00

Finally i got the chance to spend the time with my beloved Blender. This is a test which took me around 10 hours(3 light bounce with high samples) to render with my sluggish dual core. Its a new Indirect Light or Global Illumination(GI) feature from blender. Look at "the code"

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I don't know how i created this model but it was originaly ment to be a demo of box and symmetrical modelling with blender, extrude, extrude, extrude and i got carried away:

Here are some of the linear progresses i manage to cook

It start to look like a person and i can't stop...

Spiderman?

Alien?

I dont know what i'm doing, tangan takde jari...

Then i decide to...pfftt

Tadaaa...its alive!! no zombie! tak siap lagi, lepas ni nak model guitar fender...

Look at the delicous GI render....its killing me!!! xD

This is the topology of the character. I was lucky with the loops, made a couple of mistakes but i learn a lot from the modeling session...

Can i model ur 'B'?

Btw, check out durian latest progress: http://durian.blender.org/news/rende-previews/

Hellolololo... heyeyeyey... :(

2010-04-24T21:30:00.001+08:00

I'm dieing... where are you???

2010-04-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

aaaaaaaaaaarrrrghhh...............(nak mati dah)

You remind me of Helga Pataki

2010-04-05T02:23:00.005+08:00

Helga is something of a tomboy, as evidenced by her interest in playing contact sports alongside her male classmates, blatant lack of femininity, and disregard, to near dislike, for stereotypical female behavior, as seen in the episode "Helga's Makeover". She can also be very sarcastic, cynical and bossy, bullying her fourth-grade classmates with an iron fist, and often taking advantage of her best friend, Phoebe. However, Helga also has a much softer side, which becomes apparent mostly when she is alone and in her school work. She is heavily emotional, and as such, able to comprehend spectrum emotions such as love and hate. Occasionally Helga has acted in a more selfless manner the biggest examples being when Helga blackmailed Olga's boyfriend into leaving, knowing Olga would be miserable with him, and when she helped in finding Mr Hyunh's daughter. During both these events Helga made sure she was able to cover up her involvement. This emotional extremity is a running joke throughout the series; although Helga is seen as a "tough girl" by her classmates, she is frequently the first to go into hysterics in times of crisis. Helga is extremely intelligent. In the episode "The Aptitude Test", in which the class takes a standardized exam, it is eventually revealed that she achieved a perfect score on the test and the most outstanding result since her perfectionist sister, Olga Pataki, took the test. Presumably, however, the types of grades she receives on an average basis in school vary from low to high—in the episode "Quantity Time," Helga tells her parents that she failed another math test at school, though in "A Day In The Life Of A Classroom", her teacher Mr. Simmons encourages Helga to help Harold because she received excellent scores on the past two math exams. Her bad grades are most likely caused by her lack of motivation, attention (from both her family and Arnold), and academic concern. Helga appears to excel academically in literature classes, as evidenced by Mr. Simmons's constant praise of her literary work though always withholds her name possibly out of respect as she gets embarrassed from when he reads them aloud. Helga displays a remarkable gift for poetry, creating dramatic soliloquies expressing a situation or feeling with a generous use of vocabulary, especially for someone her age. These instances were more simple in the earlier episodes, but as the series progressed, grew in their intensity. Aside from poetry, Helga exhibits further aspects of cultural experience, being able to identify the work of Edward Hopper and make reference to George Orwell's Nineteen Eighty-Four in "Helga on the Couch".

Helga is regarded by most of her peers as a bully. She makes rude remarks and does not hesitate to use or threaten physical force to get her way, which intimidates many of her classmates. She even gave her fists names: Ol' Betsy and the Five Avengers.

Helga is secretly in love with Arnold, despite the fact that she is constantly teasing him and calling him names (usually 'Football Head', in reference to his rather oddly shaped head). Various episodes have her going to the extreme to prevent her secret from being exposed. One such example is the episode “Helga Blabs it All” in which, under the influence of Nitrous Oxide (laughing gas) from a dental filling, she leaves a love declaration on Arnold’s answering machine. After beating up and taking the clothes of a “Campfire Lass” (equivalent to Girl Scouts of the USA), she pretends to be selling cookies in order to gain entry to Arnold's house and steal the tape before he can hear it. In one of the show's most noteworthy episodes, "Helga on the Couch", she actually discusses her obsession with the school psychiatrist (voiced by Kathy Baker). Herein it is revealed her limerence towards Arnold is the result of transference; where her family relationships were weak, Helga subsequently transferred all feelings of love towards the one person who fulfilled her idea of care, Arnold. This is revealed by a flashback in which during Helga's first day of pre-school, her family seemed to completely ignore her existence, forcing her to make the trek to school alone in the rain and mud. Upon arriving at school, it is Arnold who offers her a helping hand and true kindness. Helga confesses her love after being caught helping Arnold, by Arnold, in Hey Arnold!: The Movie though the two both agree afterward that it was in the heat of the moment. It is also sometimes hinted in the series Arnold has strong feelings for Helga. Events in episodes like "Married", with Arnold's nightmare of married life climaxing with a heartfelt attempt by the dream Helga to express her love, also implies he has as much trouble as Helga has coming to terms with how deep his feelings are. The show's producer, Craig Bartlett, revealed during an Internet chat that had the second movie, The Jungle Movie (which was planned but never produced), been made, Arnold would have realized he and Helga were meant for each other, and finally reciprocated her feelings. Although Helga has acknowledged her feelings regarding Arnold, she opts to keep them private by publicly denying and rejecting Arnold through displays of verbal abuse. It is suggested in various episodes that Helga treats Arnold as such due to her fear that revealing her true feelings would cause her embarrassment and humiliation. In "Helga On The Couch," Helga also expresses her fear of being rejected by Arnold.

source: WIKI

New B-side from the monkeys

2010-03-31T00:03:00.004+08:00

Terbaik :)

Déjà vu

2010-03-30T15:40:00.021+08:00

I had been reading a blog of this random person and how her life reflect mine and sometime my sweet precious donut(bwhahahahah xD) scarily accurate to the point of delusion. It as if she stalk me. The way it match my situation and condition. They way she wrote, the vocab and the content she wrote as if it was written by donut(bwhahahaha again) herself or maybe they cooperate to screw me? Call me delusion for thinking that because i know its impossible(yeap). Perhaps they are the same type and have the same pattern of thought and same vocab and same kind of crazy deep thinking which produce the same kind of headache and mean bullshit to anyone other than herself and maybe some crazy critical thinker with no life, or maybe they are some kind of guide that teach you how to handle things when you are in their position and help you visualize how the other person are thinking when they are in the position, or maybe it just because they are in love and became retard? or maybe the teenage hormone?

Your mind, it can't stop generating endless possibility and you sometime get that lightning strike when a certain random connection were made. Even though it was just a coincidence and had nothing to do with the previous matter but its there, its exist in you realm and it mean something to you.

Your mind is funny. Its in autopilot all the time and sometime you will think why the hell you are thinking what you are thinking and you will think of the thinking made you think of something you shouldn't think and finally when you sleep you will dream of a thinking that you don't think and its in your thinking(ftw?) :D

I'm blank at the moment everything is all over the place right now

I miss donut...

Busy busy sem

2010-03-25T14:48:00.001+08:00

Kerja kerja kerja....endless...

I'm sorry, i honestly can't be bother to write anything...

Darth Mer invaded the balloon :D

2010-03-25T13:59:00.008+08:00

I went to Putrajaya hot air balloon fest last weekend btw... i saw DARTH VADER!! >:D

I miss a good shot for the firework though...can't wait for next year event. Enjoy ;)

Streesss

2010-02-24T18:16:00.004+08:00

I hate it when so many people need you at one particular time and you can't do anything but leave them with disappointment...

Ollie

2010-01-21T16:10:00.003+08:00

Bersenam untuk kesihatan :)

Sail Away :)

2010-01-14T05:28:00.007+08:00

Sailed against the stream for too long...

Only The Truth

2010-01-09T08:42:00.002+08:00

The girl with many different strategies.

Wakes the wolves to curse them to their knees.

She's in the one by the riverbank so it's easier for her to drown you.

And she claims, oh she claims.

Time's Up

2010-01-05T11:25:00.008+08:00

Yeap, yesterday was my first day back to u. Malasnye, thanks god the new batch that came in gave you that "spirit"...phhffff xD

Oh well, its time to move on :)

I done this just after when i got back from the uni, tak sempat tukar baju...hehehe

Enjoy ;)

Secret Door

2010-01-02T20:13:00.007+08:00

Fixed the lyric....haih...tak habis-habis vote 2 stars :[

WIP

2010-01-01T16:59:00.007+08:00

Daikanyama

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No Black Tie

Any sign?? :(

2009-12-31T00:14:00.004+08:00

Cancer

Thursday, December 31, 2009: Today's Lunar Eclipse in your sign can reveal unresolved tension in a relationship. You might have thought that everything was copacetic, only to discover that a significant issue has been swept under the rug. Unfortunately, the conflict may not be quickly resolved. You'll need to take enough time to straighten it out now or it'll just resurface again and again until you do.

Pisces

Thursday, December 31, 2009: You want to explore new ways of enjoying yourself as today's Lunar Eclipse illuminates your 5th House of Self-Expression. Still, you may be hesitant to say anything about it to anyone else. Naturally, you are concerned about what others think and you want them to approve of what you are doing, but now you're going to have to take a risk all by yourself.

Hmmmmmmmmm..............

2009-12-26T23:18:00.001+08:00

Cancer

Saturday, December 26, 2009: It's hard to decipher what someone is saying today because the words don't seem to correspond to what you thought you already knew. You are tempted to draw new conclusions based on what you learn, but it's a smarter idea to continue gathering information without trying to arrive at a final answer. Instead of pushing for closure now, work at becoming more comfortable with the unknown.

Why? :'(

2009-12-25T07:26:00.004+08:00

The most painful thing ever:

Hi, Irfan Asmadi. I'm seventeen years old.

I'm a custard pudding addict, a sushi gobbler, I have mood swings and I'm in love with you too.

:)

I thought it was all for me....

ohhhhhhhhioesafhsduiohdsiufdsghdfgdufdkhgfdiogjfdglkfdjgfdlkjgfdslgkjfdglkdfjgldfg

i!

I'm TOTALY LOST NOW......

2009-12-21T10:06:00.000+08:00

The time has come again
Slowly walking down the steps
To where she would have been
If only they were seventeen

Waiting patiently
And stood between a fraying seam
Hiding from himself
As well as everybody else

Blue Girlfriend

2009-12-20T23:17:00.025+08:00

retardness!! xD

Last Saturday was the second time i watched movie at the cinema this year and it was awesome i tell you. I don't know why the trailer was so poor. My eyes didn't blink for the whole 3 hours you know, and the way the movie injected you emotionally will leave you breathless. I wish i watched it with "someone"...i mean seriously...phhhfff...oh well............... The CGI were pupils popping and the way it blended with the live shot were flawless. The story were good, i mean it felt complete even tho some of the plot were predictable but still there were twists and a lot of epic moment in there. I watched it with my 6 eyes i tell you, the 3d glasses added icing on my pupils! 8)

I want a blue gf! or maybe "the chopper pilot babe with shade" omg! ;)

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Today i had futsal after 6 months of growing buttock. I scored hat-trick kot and all of them were long range angled shot........pricless. x)

My right leg got cramps though at the last minutes....sakit sioot...hahahaha

don't stalk my fb page with your sister account STALKER!!! xD

Puchong, Selangor landed on http://rarebeing.blogspot.com/
00:56:52 -- 23 hours 2 mins ago - cat power

2009-12-18T15:36:00.003+08:00

Red Bull

2009-12-16T22:21:00.005+08:00

Its been a nice experience working with the oldskool. Terbaik beb! xD

Kasi cargas!

Phlox Unplug

2009-12-09T06:15:00.023+08:00

Last Saturday was awesome, Phlox performed for Tonight unplug in Manys Cafe, Wangsa Maju. Me and my bro met them at the curve before hanging out at studio shop space and watched the Asian Biggest Loser. Shenaz and Hakim had this really funny and stupid argument about the soft pink hair dude from the tv show and the argument were dragged until the time they were going to perform, I mean it turned big but u know, standard la gaduh-gaduh ni sometime. Nasib baik mase perform takde ape-ape.

There were hot chicks in almost every corner btw...phhff....you jealous? ;D

Remind me of someone, obviously ;)

huh! buddifly! xD

We went back to the studio after watching football. I had my shot with the fender. I covered almost every song that I know in the jamming room. I'm getting good with 'Secret Door' btw but some of the lyric were so mouthful. I love the mic, it sound good no matter how you sing it. So ape lagi!

A phone call from my dad break the possession and then i looked at the watch and it was 8 am!!...perrghh it doesn't felt that long in the room. Hakim told me as if I dah kene rasuk hantu because everyone were sleeping...pphhff... We went back soon after because i had to take pictures for this majlis kekah and cukur jambul for this one cucu tan seri at 10, i got pain in my shoulder, me no sleep...tired :(

at least it was a great experience, makan free and duit masuk :)

Can't stop thinking about you babe

Why oh why?

2009-12-05T09:45:00.025+08:00

This was the line that i hated the most...

look dude. i never liked u as in like u. i never did right from the start.

There were tons of nastier line that i can never put in here. i don't know what she were thinking when she wrote those but i guess the heart want what the heart want and i'm not what her heart want at the time. i don't know why i'm reading it all back and i don't know what i'm feeling right now after reading it all again. It made me feel as i'm distracting her from her main intention that she had from the past that may cause her to regrets in the future. i can't even be her friend to settle things down after that blow. It made me felt sick to the guts babe...

I don't know why i keep talking about the past when i know things are different now. I guess it is the way to let it all go. I just want you to know it was painful and that's why i keep bragging and bragging and i hope you understand. I guess this game will not end anytime soon but you should always know that i was into you right from the start...

I love your last post though, i want more of that pleaseee :)

Certain Romance

2009-12-02T00:49:00.003+08:00

A bit messy at the end, I was tired but what the heck... :P

One Blood

2009-11-28T16:22:00.001+08:00

Take the road on your wheelchair
Roll it out tonight!
Cause there's only one option for us right now
One of us got to get down
If you don't hear my call for help
You're in another world boy!
I've lost my faith in the pure, blue skied summertime

I've been lying awake at night thinking
That son of a fuck dragged me down and now I'm lost
Can you help me find my long way back home?
The traffic lights are even dimmer then my past
Give me a sign, some kind of religion, Allah, Buddha
I don't care, I don't dare to choose one sign, one heart, one feeling, one God

Coz it's one blood floating in the stream
It's one blood floating in the stream...

Every day that goes I need more and more people around me
People I can rely to
Not those fucking sellouts I read about in the papers
Whose only hope are equally dumb consumers
I'm up on that stage, I'm up here, you're down there
Does that make me more important? More intelligent?
More likely to live that happy standard life your parents set you out to?

I don't know
- You're in a position most kids dream of
I don't know
- You can be as weak as the man sleeping on newspapers
I don't know
- You're still set out to tell the dirty man's story
I don't know
- Other people are talking and thinking about you as we speak
But I've seen them out there as well
- Yeah, but you don't know them do you!?
No but they don't know me either
- Well, they think they do!
They think they do!
THEY THINK THEY DO!!!

So what do I need to get through the day?
- ONE BLOOD!
What do I need to break on through the night?
- ONE HEART!
What do I do to get along with these, these fools?
- ONE SOUL!
Why don't I just go back to the steal factory? Or the warehouse?
Or the railroad? Get the fuck out of here, get the fuck out of music,
back to the days when we had one heart, one brain, one soul, one God

Coz it's one blood floating in the stream
It's one blood floating in the stream
Coz it's one blood floating in the stream
It's one blood floating in the stream
Coz it's one blood floating in the stream
It's one blood floating in the stream

-MD

Let it out

2009-11-24T21:52:00.006+08:00

That was a relief....fuuhh~~~

sucker punch

2009-11-22T12:39:00.017+08:00

I got nothing to distract me from the pain and all i can see is your words.

I thought i get over it, then a sudden flash back...

I guess i was being in denial...though i think you are truly mastering the art of making me wanting and needing you even more...

Your playlist would be the only cure for now...

Nightmare of the past

2009-11-22T02:57:00.026+08:00

I'm sorry about this, it felt so sick inside and i had to vomit it all out...

So i guess now its all connected. I was truly blinded.

Now i know why you act the way you act. My first guess was right it was as it is. Its not as you were merajuk or such. It was for real, you act like that and you meant it that way.

There is a reason why i saw all the part and eventually solve it out.

You ignore me for the first week because you were actually on with the guy. Unfortunately i made a stupid mistake by removing you from a friend list for a teaser and you had a breakthrough. You said things happen for a reason straight away to show that it was my fault that you are being that way and off you go. One month of ignorance without any compassion shows the greed and betray. Not to mention the hurtful message that you wrote to me, you said that I'm nobody and you said you are with someone else which you are and also the post you made in your blog with the mocking up etc. I doubt you were merajuk, its too much. You want to get rid of me so you can get your dream. The saddest thing was your art piece. I really thought you made it for me, its the reason why I'm still here. I even did a cover of the song...heh. I was too blind even though my instinct told me the real thing at my first sight. The guy were also in my friend list so you know how i found out. The artwork was obviously to impress him base on his previous comment. The symbol and such, no doubt. You love him don't you? I know you do. I'm nothing compare to him.

So time pass and suddenly you discover that the guy already got his own and now you regret and start to chase me back again. The date of the piece and post and such makes it too obvious, i can see the time-line in my mind so clearly. You start to write about me again in your blog after you find out about his status and it was cleverly written that only myself know about it. Coax and coax and coax with related music and some tease and you are such a coward for not admitting it. Yeah you are a p*ssy anyway...

I wish i don't have the capacity to solve it but unfortunately its not to my favor and i wish i would let it remain as a mystery but now I can't stop thinking about it again and again and again...and i can't stop painting your darker character in my mind...

Not to mention how you made me piss all the time.

You know who you are bitch. I was too blind, I don't want to see you effing face ever again. I'm honestly saying its over. I got no reason to love in the first place but...

A lesson you got to learn. If you get rid of a person for the sake of your dream, that mean you don't deserve that person, and don't you ever look back because you never deserve that person.

You don't belong here. Shhoosshh sshoosshh..

...wait...wait...

The only way for you to fix this is to prove my assumption is wrong...

Please prove me wrong...hun because i can't stop thinking about it. It made me feel sick...

I will wait after its all over though and please tell me every single thing....

.....or maybe i should forget it all because i'm myself not perfect...

haadduuuuuuuuhhh~~~~

i love you so much momoface...

Painful Truth

2009-11-20T10:14:00.041+08:00

I don't know, my mind will keep calculating the unsolved matter even thought if it was like six month ago. Have you ever fall for a person who were unfortunately also start to fall for another person? She gave you hint and stuff to show you that she was interested and you start to had feeling with her but then she suddenly change for a reason, a reason that you know but she wouldn't admit. What makes things worse was the sudden manner. It was like "Fuck you, i don't like you, i had nothing to do with you, I fancy this new guy, go to hell", mocked you with her friends and then she ignore you like tungol and the only way to communicate with her is like this and a couple of days earlier she was actually like "Woaw, bile nak belanje ice-cream?" with ;) and "more".

Oh maann...only god knows the pain. She hate me so much for admitting my feeling just when her heart with others and perhaps because i remove her from FB and myspace with a "fuck u" soon after which i think she glad because I was the one who was holding her back. If i recall back the moment, it was like one of the worst moment in my entire life period, just in front of my 10 Gb hardisk kabooom! moment.

It get even worse when you actually know what was going on. For example "que pensez-vous?". I think she look back just because she find out that the guy was already owned and at the same time you learn that you were not the "it" guy for her which you are not because if you are, she wouldn't treat you macam anjing which she did and even worse she also painted you as an ugly dog saying "NARF". Now, how would you feel when the person you care so much and you think she felt the same way suddenly treat you that way? The most painful thing that a person can ever say when the other were like "oblivion" : The heart want what the heart want. .......WTF?? :(

I might be wrong in some part but its not my fault to assume what i assume...

I got only few reason to love her but endless reason to HATE her and the most unfair thing is that i still love this girl, and i love to love her which i hate myself and i can't control it...FUUUCCCKKKKK!!!!

ccccooooommmeeeooonnn!! open your heart man!!! the more i try to to move on the more it struck...

There was this one time that i truly move on but the bitch call me back for a weird reason....f*cking fickle a*shole...

She is the most coward, weird, manipulative, ego, mean, childish, selfish, opportunist and pathetic girl that i had ever known, FACT.

...and i don't know why the hell i'm feeling what i am feeling. Being with her is the best thing ever....

I guess i'm not worthy enough for her to admit with my current standard. Let it be as it is, i guess i'm fine this way, really. To be honest i'm still not ready, maybe another ten years till i truly get my self esteem and by that time she will be on my knee begging for mercy ...bwhahahahaahahahahahha (macam sialann xD)

haduhh...i guess imagination is a cure...pphhff

I nailed Crying Lightning and it will be up pretty soon

I'm really derange now.....NARF!

Btw, Durian unveiled their main character:

David Revoy (C) copyright Blender Foundation

Love it! :D

Goodluck with math exam next week L :')

Spot on

2009-11-15T12:40:00.015+08:00

Done, so i sum up this semester under performance as 'JIWA KACAU'. I think this year is the year that break my routine. It's so different than the last three years. Emotionally as I'm riding a never ending roller-coaster ride. I kinda spend most of my time on my own for the last 6 month and not in the mood for socializing. I guess i should move to my friend's 'rumah sewa' for the next semester which is my final year, I don't know...

I finally get my haircut after a year...bwahahahah xD

Not a very happy face ain't it? :P ...or maybe control macho kot?? ;D

I had to get it because of the exam. The philosophy paper was alright even though i start studying at 1 am until the test. Never ever do that okey....i mean, if you got the time ;P

I was bored so i check my cancer if it match my situation....so i guess, SPOT ON.

Saturday, November 14, 2009: Normally, you're someone who might pass by an opportunity for an emotional thrill if you believe that it will destabilize your life. But today, you are tempted to choose to ignite the fireworks, even if there's a chance of getting burned. Fortunately, the risk is not as great as it may seem, so give yourself permission now to do something enjoyable that's outside of your regular comfort zone.

Sunday, November 15, 2009: Family responsibilities cannot be avoided now, even if your role is undergoing dramatic changes. You are taking yourself pretty seriously these days, yet something may happen today that lightens your load and brightens your heart. Unexplored possibilities are being presented to you, but this still doesn't free you from previous obligations. Instead of wasting time worrying about what you should or shouldn't do, just express what's in your heart.

Best of luck to you ;D

From outside looking in

2009-11-09T05:03:00.010+08:00

...nothing ever happen as you said,
...and thanks god for that...

You are really effing pissed me off...

...again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again.

I swear to you it will never work out.

Alone in the zone

2009-11-07T02:21:00.009+08:00

I'm on balaclava btw....

Kinda stretching my limit for these few days.

The things that I'm doing is so experimental and risky. The unknown.

I don't expect to get it to work smoothly but it did, the gear is spinning!

Mutah Darah.....bettooll....

Now it needs a little bit of polishing on the graphic.....hhhmmmm....

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And just now is the suckiest.....

I don't know what is wrong with me but one picture can really do wipe it all out. fuck.

I can't get enought of her :(

2009-11-03T21:28:00.007+08:00

sorry for acting selfish...

ehh...is momo okey???

Are we there yet?

2009-11-01T23:03:00.017+08:00

Oh man...i don't know what to do. Seeing her through the LCD screen unable to get in touch is just killing me...

and cats remind me of her....oooh...god..

btw, notice the ying and yang sign? ;)

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I finally passed up my mix media project:

Through the lonely lane

Internet - assemblage

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Hehehe....kereta sampai last week...but shit...666...

...and bad news, sadly i kinda had my first accident last week when i drove my grandma's nazza.

It got bruised against a lorrie in a tight corner...nasib baik kene sikit, only the door but RM800 goes to waste....damn....if the lorry just wait a couple of second earlier memang lepas...shiitt...

haddooii....this couple of week were just depressing....

One month to go....fuuh~~

i really miss u chubby... :'(

I wanna...I wanna...

2009-10-26T21:00:00.003+08:00

Oh...god.....so pretty....i just had to put it here....for personal fave....

;D

Muffin the lauk stealer

2009-10-23T03:20:00.016+08:00

Captured this with Nikon D300, lens 50mm 1:1.4D ISO3200 s1/100 f1.4

OOOhhh maaann......sudah la tak cukup tidur and then this happen...

-__-'

Trial and Error

2009-10-21T03:24:00.007+08:00

Fuuuuuhhh...i finally solved the CSS and HTML editing puzzle and now i just realize that everything is possible in this little blog space...

alllhamdullilahh! xD

Habisla lepas niii.... ;)

Seriously get a grip dude

2009-10-19T17:15:00.007+08:00

Oh man i guess I'm at the bottle neck of hell now. Assignments, assignments, assignments. Late, late, late and now that and that... ...and that!
ssssttttrrrrreeeeeeesssssssss....... oh maaaaann.~

I need something extra strong to boost me.....

Word of wisdom

2009-10-19T01:58:00.009+08:00

Red pen, blue pen..

...phhff

Humbug Finest

2009-10-18T01:36:00.010+08:00

Humbug is so parallel to me and the timing it release is just perfect for the situation and condition that I'm having. The lyric is just spot on....not to mention their approach and enhancement to their previous effort. It's just pure genius....

Enjoy the awesome quality lives...

The probability is closing to zero

2009-10-18T00:37:00.009+08:00

Guys are aiming for you and i guess game over then. The more i hold on, the more i would get hurt. I think they suited you more anyway, especially "the jedi". It's obvious that he obsessed with you already. Not to mention the charm and the humor and "Shina Ringo".... .....focktard...

Yeah, I'm the last think you want and i came in first ...so what? too bad I misread your sign and gesture.

Something about you which made me felt sucky and not at home. Insecure of myself. You are a mistake, and the only one to blame is myself. I don't know why i keep chasing you even though you said "fock off" since day one. I guess I'm not used to being reject...heh....the make believe....i'm pathetic...

I don't feel at home...

and I'm naturally don't like to compete in this matter...

i hope you don't break other stupid guys heart out there as myself and think its funny...

I thought I was the only retarded one

2009-10-16T10:05:00.006+08:00

Epic.

Pain is stronger than love

2009-10-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

Errr...

2009-10-14T03:34:00.008+08:00

TSSTL, is that me? :P

..heh

Dance Little Liar

2009-10-13T19:46:00.008+08:00

.
I heard the truth was built to bend,
A mechanism to suspend the guilt ,
Is what you are requiring still,
You've got to dance little liar,

Just like those fibs to pop and fizz,
And you'll be forced to take that awful quiz,
And you're bound to trip,
And she'll detect the fiction on,
Your lips and dig a contradiction up,

And the clean coming will hurt,
And you can never get it spotless,
When there's dirt beneath the dirt,
The liar take a lot less time,

I'm sure its clear and plain to me,
Its not an alibi you need just yet,
Oh no its something for those beads of sweat,
Yes that we'll get you back to normal,

And after you have dabbed the patch you’ll grieve,
And then proceed to scratch the varnish off,
That newly added calmness,
So as not to raise any alarms too soon,

And the clean coming will hurt,
And you can never get it spotless,
When there's dirt beneath the dirt,

The liar takes a lot less,
Time to decide on his saunter,
Have you got itchy bones?
And in all your time alone,
Can you hack your mind being riddled,
with the wrong memories?

And the clean coming will hurt,
And you can never get it spotless,
When there's dirt between the dirt.

- humbug, AM

Crossing the line

2009-10-13T01:33:00.044+08:00

What if you just fock out of my life you twisted and psychopathic bitch?? I never deserve a person as you.

You are getting repetitive and annoying you know...

What if I choose to teach you a lesson??

You are just too greedy to deserve what i gave....

fock off!!

Floating Hopelessly

2009-10-11T18:50:00.029+08:00

In a way, I think prank is a good thing because you think you lost everything but then when the hope are lost and you felt so low suddenly you realize it was just an act and you gain even more. It's the best feeling you can ever had. To had mention that, I think prank are also risky because you can't really predict the outcome and it might get worse than what you intended, out of control and give harms which happened. The fun bit is when you can see how the victim react in their true nature and feeling in the scenario you created. Its great....it leave me breathless and all i can do was smiillleeee..and amaze how she can handle it with flair ....and then when she get so sentimental, desperate, adorable and cute, you cave in...alolololololo.... ;) ....hahahaha...

BUT THHENN!!!

Then, the game restart and you are back to her monster mind game to her favor because of your compassionate nature. ..damn I'm weak :(

This one is slightly different to yours, what if the game is for one whole year? You were teased and then she gave you some mild hint which were so slight but so important to you and when you solve some bit of it, she wouldn't ever admit it. The only person who know about it are between you and her. You were lied and swore by the person, who you care so much and you know they were just teasing you and she also said you were delusional and nuts to her friend to add icing on her acting. Yeah its cute and funny but don't you think people would feel annoyed? gutted? bullied? mocked? hopeless? agitated? when you are treated as such for so long? and i don't even know how to act in the condition and your emotion are so fucked up....and you are pissed....but at the same time amazed and sappy....paranoid and then pissed again......arrrgggghhh

People don't believe you....and you are on your own with the truth that hard to prove.

...and then I start doing out of the box approach, take risk and go for the blow to stir her game up...but still, she hold the it firm, she can just be silent because she is the matter....hadddoooii -_-'

I don't know what to do but I love every bit of it though, you are awesome you know....but I'm jaded...

What if I will never see you again after these months of struggling? how would you feel about the things that we might had if you are not too late? what if you at least give it a shot? What if we call it a null? I guess i got the answer because you already answered it in my last act xD

btw I still remember the time when she said she weren't going to a party that we have dated at the very last minute and I still remember the gutted and disappointed feeling that i had. The desperation.....and then suddenly she was there!!! she gave me the so called sucker punch to my arm....and then i ask her to punch again because i want to feel her soft touch......i love it........bwhahhahahhahha!!

For now, I will just wait untill she finish her Big E and then....we'll see if it just a game or for real.....

Good luck kid ;)

Oyasuminasai~~

Dhameer is gay xD

2009-10-11T11:10:00.015+08:00

00yyyyeaaaaahhhh!!!

Finally a new car for the dude :)

Launching Nabil at Lepaq

2009-10-08T22:19:00.011+08:00

My uncle(padahal umur beza dua tahun je) just lunch his latest album 'Dari Jauh' at lepaq cafe in kj and I was assign as a photographer as usual....hahhaha.....it was fun :)

Congratulation dude!!

Me and my cousin....i mean aunty jiji

Remember the Celcom, Amy Search ads?

Sempat lagi buat cover oasis - Dont look back in anger :P

Ni mase dah takde orang sangat laaa...haha

Ramai awek... :D

Patient

2009-10-07T13:52:00.012+08:00

I guess I should trust myself. From the signs you gave, I think its enough to calm me. Even though you mean everything to me, I can't force one feeling. At least you notice my effort and the rest is up to you. .

Time will reveal our fate, I can't do anything more...

Is Dead

2009-10-07T01:08:00.012+08:00

JEALOUSY KILLED ME

Don't do this to me...... I'm suffering every second :(

You took a left off Last Laugh Lane

2009-10-06T02:41:00.013+08:00

Woah, the memory lane, this was like ten month ago. Notice the short messy hair? ;P

Its was not as calm, pancit, especially at the end. Siap ade teng, teng, teng, teng, teng sebab takde bass but what the heck.. :P

Oh, where did you go?
Where did you go?
Where did you go?

Falling about
You took a left off Last Laugh Lane
You just sounded it out
You're not coming back again

I miss being the way i was :(

2009-10-05T17:04:00.027+08:00

Everything are turning bad after i met, relate and then fallen to the girl. I had been ignoring girl all my life because as i predicted, the being are just risky and dangerous and then this happen.

My performance are the worst ever from my 4 years of study. I can't seem to be focus and I'm just gutted because as i recall, it was a second of mistakes and it effect months of suffering and when i try to fix things, it get worse and worse, it was so damn hard and I'm crawling desperately out of the hell pit....gutted..

I guess i had been delusional all these time and she were just having fun mocking me with her friends. My self-esteem is the lowest ever at this moment...hadooii...

To be honest, she is definitely out of my league and i would consider myself lucky to be so close with her before but now she don't event want to know me and the mistake i done was expressing my thought to her, made a prank to her, and then she pissed, try to fix things but it got worse and now i can't CTRL + Z. I wish it was as simple as that....but damn...it was so harsh....so unfair....

This famous pantun empat kerat can't get out my head:

Dua tiga kucing berlari, mana nak sama si kucing belang, dua tiga boleh kucari, mana nak sama si adik seorang...

hahahha...yeah i'm ruin....gile laaa...hahaha...yeaaa she is the one of a kind type but there are too many awesome people to own love i guess and i know who i am, where i stand. I don't deserve it yet. Definetly not good enough for her. No money, no job, no car, no charisma, no cool, nobody.

Plus she is the high maintenance type so i better get out of trouble before my life got miserable. Anak lord kot....gilee laaa.... nasib baik kene reject awal-awal kalau tidak.....eternal suffering...thanks god

Now i just trying to be as I were, very simple and easy. A happy and peaceful geek....

Come on dhameer.....COME ON DUDE!!!

YYYEEAAAHHH!!!

TAKE THE POWER BACK!!!

headbanging~~

Smile like a retard

2009-10-05T04:28:00.029+08:00

When you were mocked by someone you care the most, it felt so unworthy... it felt like a clown...

Do you feel like giving a slap?

hadduiih...

...go away...hide away from the fate because you will be there if you're meant to be there...

A Road, a Sea

2009-10-05T01:39:00.013+08:00

.(c) Frider

a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea,
a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea,
a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea,
a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea,
a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea,
a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea,
a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea, a road, a sea,

Out of the blue, u faded away...

Lion Rampant

2009-10-02T05:10:00.011+08:00

I miss Scotland :(

Subliminal Message

2009-10-01T16:48:00.014+08:00

You probably had heard of it but i just want to share the mysterious and dark realm of music for those who don't know.

The Beatles 'revolution 9' is just witty and creepy when it played backward if you unaware. Yeah its obviously intentional so have a listen....

Now, Led Zeppelin are just pure genius because the song "Stairway to Heaven" got two different meaning depending on if it play forward or backward. Good, evil, you know what i mean.

There are more in the youtube, do some research you will be amaze of the reality....

Hehehe....this one is also genius..hahaha ok laaa:

I don't know if this is true but i heard from a source stated that our mind play our memory backward when we are sleeping hence the subliminal message effect us indirectly in a way.....hahahahhaha..just a theory xP

YM heartbreak :'(

2009-09-28T23:45:00.008+08:00

It brought me to a single tear drop....damn... this was the first time i get to chat with her after months of depression...

Thanks Syifa for cheering me up....after that blow......gileeee laaa.........i'm ruinn...

My first shot

2009-09-25T14:36:00.008+08:00

...and it hit he bullz eye...bwhahahahha xD

Notice the nagka falling and the bullet chain flying at the second picture. Never thought fps game really do help with the accuracy of my shot

I felt like a Rambo! xD

It was priceless, never knew i was that go0d ......bwhahahahaha.....buarggghhh ;P

Happy Eid Mubarak!! :D

2009-09-25T14:12:00.006+08:00

Wooaaa...Kelantan was awesome!!!

I really had qualities time with the family...

More picture coming soon...

Uprising

2009-09-18T20:17:00.007+08:00

From Muse latest album, The Resistance

The paranoia is in bloom,
The PR, the transmissions, will resume,
They'll try to push drugs to keep us all dumbed down,
And hope that we will never see the truth around,

SO COME ON!

Another promise, another scene,
Another package not to keep us trapped in greed,
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds,
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined,

SO COME ON!

They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
And we will be victorious!

SO COME ON!

Interchanging mind-control,
Come, let the revolution take its toll,
If you could flick a switch and open your third eye,
You'd see that we should never be afraid to die,

SO COME ON!

Rise up and take the power back,
It's time that the fat cats had a heart attack,
You know that their time's coming to an end,
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend!

SO COME ON!

They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
And we will be victorious!

SO COME ON!

OI OI OI OI OI

They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
And we will be victorious!

SO COME ON!

COME ON!

OI OI OI OI

So you know, it's over

2009-09-18T16:13:00.008+08:00

Finally, the week is over and tonight i'm going back to Kelantan after 4 years :P

Sahur was great btw...hahaha...sempat lagi webbie..

I'm sorry, i don't lie, it's over kid, it's too late i'm with someone else...

This is FACT!

2009-09-16T20:33:00.012+08:00

I'm f**king pissed with biaaatch....

they only know how to talk gibberish...

Damn harder than add maths...at least add maths is logical....but biatch are just damn bullshit!

I'm getting the Durian Open Movie DVD!

2009-09-13T15:17:00.018+08:00

Hahaha...I'm now with my new blond DVD from AMSTERDAM...I love you babe....bwhahahah

€ 34.00 : RM 173.20

Project Durian is Blender Foundations third Open Movie project, produced in the studio of the Blender Institute in Amsterdam, the Netherlands.

Six artists and two developers have been invited to come over to Amsterdam for at least six months to create an epic action-based 3D short movie with Blender. Lead by renowned Blender artists Colin Levy (direction) and David Revoy (art direction) and with a script by famous Dutch cartoonist Martin Lodewijk, you can expect this to be an exciting project!

Just like project Orange, and Peach and Apricot, the end result itself and all of the production files will be published under the Creative Commons, free to be reused and for everyone to learn from. More importantly, the team will challenge Blender itself to the max, inspire the entire development community to prove Blender is ready for feature quality 3D production. Special attention will be spent on massive animation scenes, better library data management, smoke/fire/explosion simulations, new rendering techniques, and faster high-res compositing

You can help us to realize this project by purchasing the DVD edition of Durian in advance.

On the triple disk DVD you will find:
- The movie (approx 6-8 min) in best DVD quality widescreen format (disks in both NTSC and PAL)
- The HD version of the movie (.avi and/or .mov)
- The third disk with a lot of video tutorials by the artists and developers
- All .blend files, models, textures, and so on... the material used to create the movie.
- The original script, breakdown, storyboards
- Documentation and other tutorials by the team members about all technical aspects the movie; like how to re-use assets, animate characters, or add new shots.
- And of course all the extras we can\'t predict yet, like commentary tracks, a making-of documentary, outtakes, and so on.

Visit the durian.blender.org blog for more information about this project.

Get your credit!

If you purchase and pay the DVD by september 15th latest, you can get your name mentioned on the official movie credit scroll!
To make sure the crediting works fine, we will remind everyone via email a month before the movie goes to premiere.

The funny thing is...

Cancer (Jun 21 - Jul 22)

Saturday, September 12, 2009: The Moon's return to your sensitive sign this afternoon can bring up issues of uncertainty about how you are living your life. You are pretty witty now and might choose to hide your self-doubts behind humor. Unfortunately, an unrealized goal to acquire beautiful objects could wreak havoc on your relationships as your partner thinks about building trust and you think about buying something expensive.

Seriously....the horoscope is stalking me...I think i'm going to get a restraining order...

Time to move on

2009-09-13T08:32:00.007+08:00

Today I did something which had changed my feeling on you and made me more calm. The way you treat me give me even further reason to just move on. If it was all a hoax, i blame it all on you because you don't know when to stop, when to talk and you are just not care enough. Not to mention the mocking up and insults you conflicted on me, but I bet at the end of the day you will survive it all and move on.

I had a great experience with you btw,

Cut your hope now, I'm with someone else. it's over. It's too late....

The youth are getting JAHIL

2009-09-11T19:50:00.020+08:00

or maybe ignorance? or the meaning is the same? ;P

I hope you guys are open to my opinion. Sorry if i offended some of you but this entry is for my fellow muslim friends.

I don't know where are we heading now, our culture and society are getting worse and worse these day and the norm are well the norm are just bloody sad. One of the things that often pissed me off is the malay like myself who consider them muslim, drink the alcohol in front of their fellow muslim member without any sort of shame or guilt. Call me culture shock or what i don't care but its just wasn't pleasant in my eyes.

I remembered one day i saw this two malay teenage boys went to a shop to buy their drink. The sells girl refuse to sell it because of the law. Then the boy just couldn't stop nagging the girl shamelessly and kinda blackmailing her. It was really awkward and i respect the girl for holding her ground until those LAHANAT give up. I don't know what is in their mind and the lifestyle that they are living but its just sad.

I also remember discussing this matter with a friend who is also a muslim and sadly they end up telling me that he taught that i was open minded because i used to live in the UK and change their mind. WHAT? Well the drinking culture are indeed a norm over there but that doesn't mean Its okay for a muslim to do it. What are you thinking man?

I also once get into this awkward situation where a friend of a friend which i think is also a muslim(atheist?) and i think knows that I'm also a muslim start to open a topic about drinks and stuff since he knows that i used to live in UK. I was like WTF, WTF is in their mind. Just because i used to live there that doesn't mean i live like them. Well, I got my boundary. How short sighted is these people with their so called 'civilized' lifestyle or mind? Real world is 'eff'ing pissed me off.

I don't know their lifestyle, maybe it is from the peer pressure and surrounding or maybe they want to blend in to a certain group of people or maybe they are BOLD or curious? well...shyness is a bless from god then.

I can adapt or pretend that its alright to do it to not offend them but how about ME? They are bloody offended me and Islam... Should i just carry on? Hell no, this is wrong man what the hell is wrong with our society here in Malaysia.

Now the recent news:

Kartika Sari Dewi, seorang model sambilan dari Singapura telah di’jatuhkan hukuman enam sebatan (Aduh, sakit!) oleh Mahkamah Tinggi Syariah, di sini semalam selepas mengaku salah meminum minuman keras di sebuah pusat hiburan di Cherating.

“Mahkamah tidak ragu lagi menjatuhkan hukuman ini selepas tertuduh sudah membuat pengakuan bersalah dan selepas meneliti hujah pendakwaan selain berdasarkan dalil bagi hukuman berkenaan, maka sebatan wajar dikenakan mengikut enakmen ini.

“Malah, hukuman sebat ke atas tertuduh bertujuan untuk memberi keinsafan dan pengajaran kepada semua pihak supaya tidak mengulangi perbuatan itu,” kata Hakim Datuk Abdul Rahman

Aktiviti Kartika Sri Dewi khabar’nya dikantoi baik oleh Jabatan Agama Islam Pahang (Jaip) ketika satu serbuan dibuat di kelab malam Cherating. Satu pengajaran epik buat anda, jangan buat benda haram.

That should teach her a lesson.

Its obvious that alcohol give you more harm than goods but we people are just weak and ignorance...

“O you who believe intoxicants (all kinds of alcoholic drinks), and gambling … are an abomination of Shaitan’s (Satan) handiwork. So avoid (strictly all) that (abomination) in order that you may be successful. Satan wants only to excite enmity and hatred between you with intoxicants and gambling, and hinder you from the remembrance of Allah and from As-Salat (the prayer). So will you not then abstain?” (5:90-91)

The latest developments in medical science have proved the consumption of alcohol and narcotics to be a social evil causing great harm not only to the society but also to human health. If we look into the expenditure incurred on drinks (intoxicants) in European and American countries we get an alarming figure of thousands of millions of dollars. France has the highest alcohol consumption. Frenchmen consume 200 million liters of alcoholic beverages every year.

Alcohol makes the man unstable and creates multifarious problems. It breaks the family ties and brings about a complete disruption in family life. The man under its influence fills the destructive bowl, gets excited with an urge to commit crimes and does not hesitate to commit adultery, incest and fornication.

Alcohol abuse presents the society with a staggering bill. In the US, somewhere between $25 billion to $40 billion are lost in terms of labor productivity, treatment and welfare. (Koffend 1979)

In 1979, the World Health Organization in a report stated that alcoholism is becoming a major problem in developing countries. In Zambia and Venezuela the abuses of alcohol are linked with increasing crimes and is the major cause of road accidents. In South Africa, 75 percent of the population is affected directly with adverse affects of alcoholism. In US, 40 percent of all road accidents are due to alcohol abuse and alcohol accounts for 50 percent of criminal arrests.

Man is a social animal. He is superior to animals by virtue of his mental faculties. If these faculties are impaired, he will act like an animal. Alcohol and narcotic drugs impair the higher centers of the brain with the result a man loses judgment, intellect, learning reason, memory and orientation. The lower centers of the brain are freed from the inhibiting influence of the higher centers causing excitement and animalistic behaviors. Owing to this, the intoxicated person behaves recklessly and become loquacious and loses self-control, totters and is led by evil desires to commit crimes.

The following are the bodily harms or diseases of alcoholism observed by the medical science.

Peripheral Neuritis, i.e. numbness and weakness in nervous system.
Wernicks Encephalopathy, causing the disturbance in consciousness and neurological problems.
Korsakoffs Psychosis i.e. impairment of memory delusion.
Delirium Tremens. The alcoholic is confused, restless, misidentifies people and places and has severe tremor.
Cerebella degeneration.
Alcoholic gastritis causes heartburn, anorexia, nausea, and vomiting.
Pancreatitis. It may result into hemorrhage resulting in death.

There are some other sever diseases like cardiomyopathy abnormality of the rhythm of the heart and beri beri heart disease etc., etc.

The above facts make it crystal clear that alcohol and narcotic drugs not only take away the hard-earned money of the people but also their intellect and health and leave them worthless. Caliph Omar was wise when he prayed in earlier 7th century for the ban saying intoxicants take away the money and the intellect. Allah the Omniscient, the All-Wise Who cares for the welfare of his bondmen banned intoxicants and delivered them from the pernicious evil.

Now in 20th century all the sensible world is making a lot of hue and cry to stop alcoholism only to learn that it is reaching epidemic proportions.

It is Islam which tackled all social evils and crimes and devised ways and means to save humanity from the menace of narcotics and alcoholism. ENDS.

Quoted this from the science and quran site

Just think about it. Every rules that god made are for a perfect reason.

Now think about BABI and H1N1. I remember one of my teacher in Scotland who asked his student "who doesn't eat pork?" and i was the only student who raised my hand up since i was the only muslim in the class and to my amazement he also raised his hand and explain about the worm living inside it and cooking the pork still wouldn't kill the creature. That's why if you notice the polka dot in the skin for those who eat pork are resulting from the worm. Remember Japanese encephalitis and now H1N1.

An artwork from my friend, Rizal

To me, people who doesn't believe in god is the most ignorance living creature on earth. Look at everything around you. Look at your face at you eyes and your gender for instance. Things are perfectly design, there's balance for everything, there is connection in everything so you can learn from it. The matter which exists, some of it you can't see it but you can feel it in your heart. If there is one, there must be zero. Male, female. Black and white. Good and bad you see? PERFECT! This can't be happen by chance as the theory of Darwin stated. To me, adaptation on the anatomy and the feature to the surrounding of the creature that had been design is what we can take from it but design, NEW DESIGN, different design is another thing. Monkeys and us is TWO DIFFERENT DESIGN GOD DAMN IT!! WAKE UP PEOPLE !!...well Arctic Monkeys is a metaphor ;P

Opinion are always welcome :)

In a way, It feels good to be rejected :)

2009-09-09T22:34:00.016+08:00

Do you notice the superman hair ;P

I don't know, i always get the sorrow drug feeling bursting at my heart when people underestimate me or think that I'm a loser or need to get a life. It felt almost like love, but with who you are. It tell you that you had failed in their eyes leaving you no pressure but another day to prove that they made a huge mistake. They in another hand need to bare the pressure of their own ego and the judge they labeled on you.

Its fine to build your own ego and live with it because everyone must have one for their confident and self worth but its better to be humble and let the truth tells how much you really worth.

I'm sorry

2009-09-09T18:46:00.027+08:00

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Thanks for clearing things out, I won't bother you.

Don't you ever coax me when it's too late. Do you think I'm stupid for not noticing your sign and such. Your reaction and all shows la, its too obvious for me. Without it would i still be chasing you after six month? I'm not stupid and I'm not delusional and don't you dare to call me that.

You always lie, that is your specialty from what i observe. Now i don't know what is true and what is not and i don't care anymore because you made me pissed.

A thing that i learned from this:
Making them too secure of themselves will stroke their ego way up to the infinity and beyond sampai tak sedar diri.

She really is a strange and twisted ego bitch.

P/s if i said bitch to someone i like and meant it, that mean she is a goner.

Lucky 09 . 09 . 09?

2009-09-09T00:19:00.031+08:00

Hahaha i found this while i was browsing the deviant art ;p

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I got bored, so i look at your horoscope and found out this:

Pisces Horoscopes

(Feb 19 - Mar 20)

Wednesday, Sep 9th, 2009 -- You may be shy about your feelings today and your hesitant behavior reflects this lack of confidence. Although you might worry about being rejected or misunderstood by someone you love, remaining silent increases the chances for isolation. Take a risk and bring your suppressed emotions up to the surface where they can be the topic of discussion. Wherever the conversation leads, it will be better than no dialogue at all.

Betol la ni, honestly it really does sound like you and the situation we are in. Tak tengok my cancer punye lagi...kan i dah cakap COMMUNICATE! haa...kan dah kene sound degan horoscope sekali. i know you fancy me, obvious sangat kot. Tell laaa, tell laaa....hahaha ;P

I really miss you isadhora....

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Cancer Horoscopes

(June 21 - Jul 22)

Wednesday, Sep 9th, 2009 -- You could be highly motivated to take care of those you love and shower them with your affection as ardent Mars continues moving through your nurturing sign until October 16. But it's crucial to be clear about what you are doing with illusory Neptune now also in the picture. Losing yourself in a fantasy can be delicious, but not if it overflows into your real life and confuses your behavior with unclear motives.

Alamak......patutlaaaaa....i posted this entry -_-'

Grrrrrr...

2009-09-08T07:56:00.022+08:00

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...tumbukla kalau berani, bajet ganas sangat...sudahlah pendek...

...underage pulaktu... ish ish ish...

Turning Point...err

2009-09-07T02:09:00.027+08:00

The time, It felt so long. Are you enjoying the moment? I'm going to die early if i get this all the time....STRESS

Finally i had a breakthrough into your boundary after four month and i realize...the insults. I can't stop read it again and again and again. What you wrote, what your friends wrote about me.

WTF?

I guess i made a mistake. It felt so unworthy to be treated as such. I trust you. Now i know what they really think of me. Honestly I'm f**king pissed. You had never even say sorry to me. Ego sangat. I give you chances, I don't think you deserve me.

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But...

..but i don't know

I don't know

This is not fair :(

I guess I'm trapped...

Those were old stuff right?? because i clicked "old post" like four times i think until i found those.

I guess i should pretend you were being mean(cute)?? right? kan? kan?

Blender Head Mode: ON

2009-09-05T04:40:00.003+08:00

Well, now I'm going to share you a bit about my obsession with my beloved software BLENDER!!!

I had spend 7 years of my life with her btw ;P

Well if you never heard of Blender, I mean is not the one you use at the kitchen okeyy...err...well.. Blender is an open source 3d application which is freely available online. You can do all sort of thing from the 3d modeling to unwrapping to texturing to rigging to animation and finally rendering. You can also do real time interactive such as game with it. TOTALLY AWESOME !!!

Blender GUI

The application can be download from their main site and it can be use for all sort of thing right away. Of course you need some skill..well... I can teach you personally if you want ;D

Well not you, ONLY YOU ;)

Unfortunately many of my 3d artwork were gone after my hard drive broke down. These are some of the remaining and the latest:

Done this six years ago when i was fourteen.

Done this after i played the Pro Evolution Soccer 4 for PS 2 :)

Done this after i was rejected by MEGAN FOX :'(

I done this for my major for diploma

For project mangement subject last sem.

For major when i was in melaka.

For 3d aniamtion subject. The blender part was the dragon. The background thingy was done in 3D MAX. The dragon took quite awhile to model but it's a pleasure to see it in motion in the end :)

Montage for an event in UiTM Melaka

What i love about blender is their community of developers and artists who are willing to share their knowledge and resource and their ability to organize and develops the steaming hot software and also open content such as open movie project where 3d enthusiast can gain knowledge from it. I LOVE THEIR SHARING CULTURE AND IN THE END THEY GAIN EVEN MORE AND THEY NEVER LOOK LIKE STOPPING. All the best guys!!!

I thank god that blender exist which had contributed me on my skill as an insomniac maniac and also as a tool turn my dream into reality...well visually....hehehe

One other forum which i always check out for CGI stuff is the CGTALK. Have a little exposure with it kid, i bet you will love it :)

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OPEN MOVIE

This is their last open movie project which are called BIG BUCK BUNNY, totally funny and psychopath. Seriously check them out.

What i love about open movie is that they also share their project files which available freely online for you to explore or you can order the DVD.

Their first ever open movie and also the first ever open movie in the world: Elephant Dream

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NOW PROJECT DURIAN!!!

Well this is their latest open movie project which the theme is about myth and fantasy as the like of final fantasy. The last open movie was about enhancing the fur, animation features and work flow in blender and durian is about the special effect feature in blender as you can see from their logo. Well i am excited about the project because i love durian kooot same as you ;P

Check out their main site: DURIAN

You can also get your credit for the movie for ordering their DVD

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Latest Feature

and now check out blender latest feature from their latest 2.5 version. Volumetric SMOKE!!! WHOOOHOOO!!!

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Game Engine

The game engine in blender is what made the software so unique. It is a quite high level system for game/real time interactive editor since the artist also manage to create a game out of it. Well they need to push their limit a bit and learn a little bit of scripting to use the full power of the engine but the basic is productive enough.

Some example i took from the web:

Powerful ain't it??

Well...

I AM MAD ABOUT YOU BLENDER!!!

I would love to have a child of yours!!! xD

OMG

2009-09-03T20:41:00.010+08:00

Cancer (Jun 21 - Jul 22)

September 3, 2009: Someone may accuse you of being negative today, yet that's not your perception of what's happening. Your denial doesn't do much to settle others down as they ask you to explain your behavior. Don't allow yourself to get sucked into someone else's drama, but if it's true that you have been hiding your frustrations it will feel better to get them out into the open.

from myspace horoscope application thingy

I notice it just now and it is getting scary. What is this thing? Its been accurate all this while....

It is as they are telling our story if you know what i mean. Do you remember the weeks before when i told you about this? its match right? I guess they are stalking us?? omg i'm scare...

Gulp~

Not Again :(

2009-09-03T05:19:00.034+08:00

sudden storm (c) dhameer

I think you still want him and that's why you doubt me to stay true to yourself. You miss him kan? I don't blame you. Maybe all the hint were for him? Oh well....I'M CONFUSED!!! You said I'm not even your bf or such so that does make sense. It was for him. All the hint were for him, damn I'm stupid...You insulted me like tons of times for absolute no reason. Well now i kinda get why you said those awful things.

If he really want you, why would he left you lost all alone by yourself?

What he did to you does remind me of what you did to me but still, i will turn my back on you if you try. So do you with your ex kan? would you? Now, with this assumption, i does kinda lose my faith in you. Maybe you used me to get his attention? i hope not... :(

The way you act, I doubt you had any feeling on me...well maybe a little...errr......maybe i dont know...

If this is not what you meant, your one liner(or two) and 'the lyric' really does make my head spin. I HATE IT!! Maybe its not for me but you know, the feeling...

I'M ABSOLUTELY CONFUSED NOW!

I'm sorry if I'm wrong though. I just want you to know what is in my mind. Maybe I'm sensitive? I know its far from the truth, prove me wrong :(

Yeah, I'm over reacting....hehe

Well, I'm hoping for the worst because its been worse all these five month of hell and i got the felling it will never change...or would it? would you change for me?

i don't blame you, its your feeling but i hate it when you fickle....so scary if you know what i mean... i prefer when you tickle ;P

Good luck on your SPM though...

I'm really missing you hun...

p/s did i misinterpret the lyric?

Hard to be content I vomit

2009-09-01T00:18:00.010+08:00

And on my own, I try so hard just to be content
Got no regrets, except I wish you were here with me

And in time, change my mind I hope
Ooh

Got no regrets, except I wish you were here with me
You look much older when you're mad
Your heart starts speeding like a discotheque
Got no regrets, except I wish you were here with me
I wish you were here with me

-LF

Look!!

2009-08-29T23:25:00.003+08:00

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Something wrong with the banner! My blog is hacked!!

Noooooo..... -_-'

Delusion

2009-08-29T16:50:00.016+08:00

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I dig deep, she swam deeper,
Shows her sign mild and gracefully,
everywhere in one and zero,
In strokes and vibrations to be explore.

Describing a person almost like me,
I'm searching for this person to kill my dream,
Yet its remain unsolved.

Who is the guy? who is the guy? i asked

The screen stare at me silently.

I guess time will reveal eventually.

-ADA

Dangerous Animals

2009-08-28T03:17:00.004+08:00

Been fighting with my sheets,
Nearly crying in my sleep,
Yes, I'm battering that welt-up gripe,
The most frustrating type,
You should have racing stripes.
The way you keep me in pursuit,
Sharpen the heel of your boot,
And you press it in my chest,
and you make me wheeze,
Into my knees you do promote me.

I'm pinned down by the dark.

- AM

Through The Lonely Lane

2009-08-27T06:09:00.006+08:00

I don't now what happen to me but everything are behind the schedule....

(c)dhameer

It's a last minute work...time...arggghhhh

Plan B

2009-08-27T05:11:00.011+08:00

...am i just that?

Well i don't blame you because you are tasting perfection,

and it made me nothing.

No function.

I should be gone by now but...

Hair cut?

2009-08-25T02:27:00.008+08:00

What the heck, I got the messiest hair i bet you.

Damn, now you think that i'm vain....and i look vainer when I'm try to fix my unmanageable hair. I'm not that vain you know, its just that my hair is always awkward all the time unlike the normal people. I will not be vain if i got normal hair that will follow my hand okkeyy? Don't call me vain!!

Damn, i don't know why i keep uploading my own image, shit, am i vain?

i'm getting lame and lamer in this game...

arrrgghhhhhh~~

The Last Stanza

2009-08-24T02:33:00.012+08:00

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(c) leguaan

I promise you it won't happen,

but it's up to you actually,

I will replace it with this:

Step by step taken in moment,
Cold feet brave feet are alike,
You will arrive if you want to arrive,
It is you the one who drive.
(c) dhameer

then la la la la...

Happy fasting :)

2009-08-22T04:50:00.022+08:00

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My pimples shows that i'm....*ahem* *ahem* ...dugaaan...

Hold your temptation...

Allhamdullilah, I aced it since i was standard one...

...I wish my fasting would also be full this year, insyallah

I hope this month will purify you evil...

...and also help you pull off a shape?...hahaha.. all the best :)

Its over. NEXT

2009-08-20T20:57:00.028+08:00

I done my part, it didn't work out and I'm falling out. Perfect.
Now i don't need to worry about the commitment to my imaginary girlfriend which i sadly make believe myself bwhahahha. So there, history repeat itself. Things fail without it even started. Good and I'm still single after 20 years. Should i be worry? naaah

I remember my life when i was back in Scotland, my teenage life. It was alright, not too bad, i was shy though but I'm kinda like the person who get the attention the most because of where i came from. Being the only foreigner in the school. Galashiels Academy was the school name.

(c)copyright Mary and Angus Hogg

Damn i missed Scotland, it was like a dream land, so green and spectacular, so medieval. Four years went too fast and i thought I was gonna live there forever.

i remember this spot, the spot where i had a snowball fight, it was priceless. I can still remember my first head shot...

It was kinda hard to blend-in because of the accent, religion and cultural different but then after a year i get used to it. Over there the secondary school system are different, we went to the teacher's class instead of just stay in one class and then the teacher came in as in Malaysia. I always skip the english class though because i was stress out with the essay, poem, novel and stuff. I hate english, it was too hard at the time but now everything change.

This is when i was 13 years old wearing the school uniform. Hehehe...goofy gile.

Girls over there were awesome because they were the one who tackle you...kekeke. Not to mention they were hot, especially the blond...hehehe and there was this girl, my school mate, who was so pretty, so into me, so sweet but i never gave her the answer she wanted i don't know why. She always ask for my help when she got a problem with the school task, it was the only way for her to communicate with me beside asking some random question about my hometown. i think i loved her but i don't know i was too shy, I always awkward in front of girl, my tongue tied.

Too easy to attract, too many option which made me prefer being single but when I'm now back in Malaysia i was like 'wow', I was fucking ego because i turned down every single one of them acting cool as nothing to look forward to. Shit, rugi gile... my love life was like none, loser gile but at least i had a more silent but connected puppy love.....bwhaahahahahha....cam sial... the rest are history.

One other reason i was single, i think it was because of my obsession with a 3d software called Blender. I started using it since i was 13. i was so obsessed that i even skip school to explore the mystery of the computer generated image. It turn my dream into reality, I was hyper. I snap out of it though after my hard drive broke down which bring me to oblivion, all my 40GIG of artwork were all gone, damn, I was so sad, at least i still got the skill though. You can call me a geek :)

This is the channel street which is the street where my apartment located. The shop closed at 6pm and suddenly the street became a ghost town. The street were the spot where i played football and i remember one day when the ball hit and broke the window of a bank and the police came and we were running like hell....hahaha Eventually when i got home a police came in and interview me of what exactly happened. It was funny. After that day people were not allow to play football on the street ever again...hahaha...we were the football legend of the street...

I finished my O level when i was 16 and then i work over there for a month in a floss factory. My first ever job btw and i earn 250 pound for a week, so that mean 250 times by 5.8(it was 6.4) RM1450 per week, 1450 x 4 = RM5806 per month, not to mention the OT and it was for a labour job. All i done was siting in a chair make a box from the cardboard and feel-in the box with the product and maybe stick a label onto the box, easy piecey but i need to work for 8 hours starting from 8 am until 4pm. Damn i love UK and its currency...hahaha

I remember there was this hot blond girl which i flirted everyday....hahaha. We were like siting parallel to each other but facing away, and she can't stop looking back at me every single time when she was working...omg, same with me and we know our pattern, it was funny but i didn't talk to her, again, damn i was shy, fuck. After a month i quit the job without saying a single word to her but we were instinctively connected until i left for Malaysia. It was weird. I'm weird, I always had these moment in my life and it leads me to nowhere...i never had the courage to take the next step, i was insecure. I'm suck with girl.

Sweet sixteen....bwhahahahha

Yeap, history repeat itself, its over before it even started. I'm waiting for the one who gonna break this curse. Oh well...

Make Believe

2009-08-19T04:03:00.008+08:00

You know what, I think we should move on, its the best way.

The time when you were away it was a shock at first, now I'm over it and i think i can cope, don't worry.

I'm really sorry kid, i don't know, now I'm confused whether i like you or not. I think the feeling were just an illusion created by you reaction and its burning out.
Don't put your hope in me okey? i don't want you to hurt.

I think we should let things loose because i don't think i can handle you and you are too young to limit you choice now don't you think?

I hope you are not mad and I'm sorry if i gave you too much hope. I was just trying to make you feel better. I really meant what i said but i don't know, sudden realization and the feeling are all gone now. I'm confused. i don't want to live in denial, I'm sorry.

Believe me you will find a person way-way better than I'm, the one who suit you more.

I'm not ready for anyone yet...

Epic Fail...or was it?

2009-08-18T00:46:00.008+08:00

Hmm...nothings seem to goes to plan these days. The time, the energy, the memory, the blackout, the DVD, the av cable for laptop thingy... It was meant to be a surprise for the nite but they can't play it because of a technical difficulty. i was gutted...

Oh well... its still a surprise though, a facebook surprise. At least it brought them to tears :)

Congratulation to Mark and Kak Azwin! Enjoy...

Its always a pleasure to do these things but i wish i had more time...

'Obvious'kan?

2009-08-16T07:12:00.007+08:00

I don't know,

I'm sorry, I guess I'm paranoid?

My heavy heart,

It made me nervous.

You know me don't you?

Teared Hope

2009-08-15T03:50:00.029+08:00

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Ego is a call for waste,
Times, emotions and scarifies
Good things sucked to it,
Bad things come arises.

Trapped because i care,
So none of it more,
Faith are lost to you,
So what I'm gonna do?

The best is not in me.
I won't make you confused,
Acceptable, adaptable,
I'm just a mediocre.

If it's not true,
I blame it on you,
You made me felt so small,
But the truth is I'm much tall.

Better person could be hold,
The one who are honest,
The one who care,
The one who doesn't broke my heart, back stab or swear.

Reborn is the day today,
Free from your cruel game,
I'm far better than what you said i am,
I felt far greater without the existent of your name.
(c) dhameer

Don't copycat me kuching...